anxiety attack

my hands are cold. my mind is scrambled. i could not do my work properly.

i think i'm having an anxiety attack.

the first of july. the first day of the month where the changes begin.

i will stop working in two weeks time and i will pack up all of my things and ship them home in three weeks time. by end of this month, i will be unemployed and homeless in singapore.

sometimes, i can no longer think about the wedding, the preparation, and the happiness. i will be scared. and fear will start to freeze me. i cannot even think of what are the things that trigger the fear.

funny how your body responds to the state of your mind.

okay. i'd better do something else to distract myself.